February 2012
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i was making some green tea. i left it heating on the stove and then retreated to my room to tumblr. went back to the stove. my tea is ready to drink in my cup. i see the honey beside it. i ask my mom ” how much honey did you put in this?” mom” not that much, it might be a bit bitter.” me ” i don’t care if it’s bitter. HOW MUCH HONEY IS IN THIS?!”...
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stuff.
Thinspo Quizpo Are you the fat or thin one out of your friends? usually the thin one.
Ever hurt yourself on purpose? Yes. just did.
Ever been to a psychologist? yes.
Lost weight? Yes.
Gained weight? Yes.
Do you drink? rarely.
Do you smoke? yess.
Do you take drugs? yess.
Does your weight affect your mood? Yes.
Do you weight yourself daily? At least 3times a day…
Have you ever...
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last night...
so after finishing up with crying. i went out with some friends. we were going to get some weed, but all my dealers are crap and never have any. so instead we stopped by a smoke shop and bought some spice. a lot of people can’t smoke spice because they puke or get nose bleeds. I’ve smoked spice about 5times and I’ve only gotten a small nosebleed. but yesterday…...
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thanks mom
*mom comes home*
mom: alexa why didn't you eat?!
me: what the hell. i did eat. (1/2cup rice)
mom: no you didn't! you might as well put on your pjs, because since you didn't eat, you're not going ANYWHERE!
me: what the.....
*i did eat. i got mad. she's speculating garbage. i started crying. it's what i do when i'm mad*
mom: why are you crying? is something wrong.
me: ..nothing.....
YES. mother im anorexic and you makign me remind myself that i ate isn't making me feel better. can't stop crying. cool.
Anonymous asked: you are beautiful
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i’ve decided to post some “real girl” thinspo of me. well hope it inspires…
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sloppy, but oh well
oh, and random cat finger puppets… :D
just binged. i'm going to explode. omg what am i...
becoming beautiful.
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yesss.
reached my first goal weight, 88lbs. took me a while. i realized that the thinner i am, the harder it becomes to lose weight… so hopefully i can reach gw2.
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thanks.
my grades have recently been dropping. i don’t feel that motivated to do school work anymore…but i have to. I’m going to! i spend more time drooling over thinspo and drinking tea than actually studying and doing my hw. this needs to change. i can’t let my grades slip. not again. from today on: no more b.s. i’m not going to give up. i’m going to try. i already...
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someone get me some of this..
haha i want this :D and this. my bf got me some of this tea for Xmas. iloveit >:O
“dear parents: STFU”
trying to write an essay.
i’ve been trying to write an essay for about 4hours. i have no idea why i can’t finish. My heads just someplace else, i don’t know. my bf was “supposed” to come over, naaa he decided he didn’t want to spend time with me, whatever. iv’e been making tea all day, i can’t stop. haha funny, i can’t seem to stop typing out what im thinking for...
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i ate so much today :x
i feel sort of disgusting.. bf: cereal 1banana 1cup soy milk *purged* L: 3tacos 1pack M&Ms 1homemade burger (patty, cheese, tomatoes, ketchup, sesame buns) D: 1cup pasta 5grilled chicken strips. ….then is what happens when i smoke weed. i eat, and i eat, and i eat.
i think i’m going to quit. i don’t even enjoy being high anymore. acid is...
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